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Nothing's Getting Better
02:42
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2. |
Fine
00:58
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I'm not fine.
Fine.
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Just what did you think would happen if you tried
Just another drawn out sleepless night
Where everything you want runs endlessly through your mind
And nothing’s any closer
Will I ever be the one who gets picked first
Or will I spend my life in second and third
Or this all a joke
I haven’t got a hope
Keep my mind occupied
Til I drift on home
It’s 4AM, just close your eyes
You can’t do that, we’ll compromise
Get out of bed, take something strong
It does no good, lay down til dawn
Stumble through another day of scraping by
Something is late, you can’t say why
Another friend reaches out and you just say you’re fine
As if it makes you stronger
Will I ever be the one who gets picked first
Or will I spend my life in second and third
Or this all a joke
I haven’t got a hope
Keep my mind occupied
Til I drift on home
I'm out of body
hovering above my restless frame
no one is coming
to watch an overnight one actor tragedy
so if you need me I'll be floating far above this
performing for these fleeting thoughts of "is it worth it?"
and when my body finally gives way to the quiet
I will return to the dark and hope that we find our purpose
Will I ever be the one who gets picked first
Or will I spend my life in second and third
Or this all a joke
I haven’t got a hope
Keep my mind occupied
Til I drift on home
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I’ve been sleeping with the lights on lately
‘Cause my window shades are stuck
And I know if I don't
I might never find the strength to wake up
Down the street there’s a nice old lady
Who walks her dog twice daily
Makes me feel like I don’t belong
In this committee controlled place, fined if your grass is too long
And all my friends are fighting
Who would have guessed it
Another night spent writing
Oh just forget it, oh just forget it
I ain’t really been myself lately
For the past, like, 20 years
I’m just confirming all my doubts and all my fears
I write a lot about the past
And the time I can’t get back
And how much I want to change it
but I can't
and I'm not any closer
who would have guessed it?
Just tryna make the most of
what I've got left
I'll unravel this mess yet
Neighbor called the cops again
I think i'm losing oxygen
I'll suffocate if I stay in this place
and maybe there's a reason why
I'm so different from the others my
identity slowly being erased
I ain’t really been myself lately
For the past, like, 20 years
I’m just confirming all my doubts and all my fears
I write a lot about the past
And the time I can’t get back
And how much I want to change it
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Tell me again how fantastic your franchise is
The way that you speak you almost seem proud of it
You couldn’t say it any more ways
You’re just standing in my doorway
An immovable fountain of rhetoric
Blind to the fact that I’m not having it
I’m sick of all this
I never wanted any part of it
I just didn’t fit
Just Hanging ‘til I have the funds to quit
Another prospect wanders through the room
Watch the multitude of feathers bloom
Hip hip hooray, it’s a peacock parade
I hadn’t planned on sleeping anyway
Who’s moving in this week?
Who’s getting kicked to the street?
Who’s moving in this week?
Who’s getting kicked to the street?
I’m sick of all this
I never wanted any part of it
I just didn’t fit
Just Hanging ‘til I have the funds to quit
Another prospect wanders through the room
Watch the multitude of feathers bloom
Hip hip hooray, it’s a peacock parade
I hadn’t planned on sleeping anyway
I’m sick of all this
I never wanted any part of it
I just didn’t fit
and you should know
you put me through a lot of unpleasant circumstances
a lot of unpleasant circumstances
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It’s so quiet
I’m finally ok with the silence
I don’t mind it
As long as we're both here beside it
the voices of doubt
aren't around when you are
it's complicated to explain
I know you're not my way out
and I'm trying too hard
to find out if you feel the same
I could see it in your eyes, you knew
What I wanted to say but failed to
And I’ll admit that you deserve
Somebody who can say the words
Can I come over?
I just can’t be here right now
I just need somebody to talk to
Who knows what it feels like
Won’t tell me I ought to
Not feel so bad
I wouldn’t if I could
This is the only place
I feel ok
Maybe one day I'll feel good
the voices of doubt
aren't around when you are
it's complicated to explain
I know you're not my way out
and I'm trying too hard
to find out if you feel the same
I could see it in your eyes, you knew
What I wanted to say but failed to
And I’ll admit that you deserve
Somebody who can say the words
Experience taught me the best thing to say
Is nothing
No one ever feels the same
can’t shake the thought, if you knew how I felt
If I let you in, it would just push you further away
I could see it in your eyes, you knew
What I wanted to say but failed to
And I’ll admit that you deserve
Somebody who can say the words
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7. |
Stranger
03:51
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Born into a world that wasn’t made for me
And everybody did their best
Didn’t know any better, would I change a thing?
I’m still an untamed mess
Over again, I feel so very out of place
Wherever I’m told I belong
I’ll survive if it kills me, I’ll wear every face
None feel right, they all feel wrong
Stranger looking back at me
“You’ll get used to it gradually”
But that hasn’t been the case in actuality
I’m going back to sleep
Another day another chance to tell you everything
Why I’m distant, always off, and dissociating
Barely there and unaware of what I’m doing here
Disconnecting from my body til I disappear
Stranger looking back at me
“You’ll get used to it gradually”
But that hasn’t been the case in actuality
I’m going, going...
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8. |
1500 Miles
02:56
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Hello
Did you want something from me?
You should know
If you asked I would give anything
at least I feel a little better when she talks to me
makes me feel I'm closer to the person that I wanna be
sometimes I can't believe that this is happening
and if it's not then don't ever wake me from this dream
1500 miles there
can you understand where I am coming from?
1500 miles back
can you understand that I'm still kind of numb?
maybe if I write her something pretty she'll remember my name
and even if I never get it right I'll try all the same
1500 miles there
can you understand where I am coming from?
1500 miles back
can you understand that I'm still kind of numb?
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9. |
Circuit Bent
04:09
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Minding my own business in the back of the venue
Trying to find something decent on the menu
Turn my head, eyes lock, a sudden meeting
Time slows as she goes in for the greeting
Say something
Not working
Crossed wires
Short circuit
Not ready,
heart poundin'
Palms sweaty
dumbfounded
I'm a circuit bent speak and spell
When you try to talk to me,
Just can't think as well
Something's got a hold of me
I'm sure you can tell
By the way I'm babbling
I'm not good at the whole
Talking to people thing
Don’t forget to breathe
And don’t throw up
Remember make eye contact
but not too much
It looks like you might actually be getting along
Til she says you look nice
And you don’t know how to respond
Say something
Not working
Crossed wires
Short circuit
Not ready,
heart poundin'
Palms sweaty
dumbfounded
I'm a circuit bent speak and spell
When you try to talk to me,
Just can't think as well
Something's got a hold of me
I'm sure you can tell
By the way I'm babbling
I'm not good at the whole
Talking to people thing
I really gotta go
I've got some things to do
Besides it's kinda difficult
To try and talk to you
But I was wondering if you might
Be free tomorrow night
Thought you might like to go
To hey, um, I dunno,
Something like that place
People put stuff in their face
Can't remember what its called
You know what I'm just gonna go
I'm a circuit bent speak and spell
When you try to talk to me,
Just can't think as well
Something's got a hold of me
I'm sure you can tell
By the way I'm babbling
I'm not good at the whole
Talking to people thing
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10. |
Just Sayin'
03:40
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I’m making a list of all your flaws
I’m gonna convince myself it’s not a big deal
‘Cause it’s not
Maybe it simply wasn’t meant to be
I guess I didn’t need the company
I guess I didn’t need my sanity
And it’s plain as day who I mean when I say
I can’t wait to watch this blow up in your face
I’m just sayin’
Don’t be surprised
When he leaves you
For the next girl that I like
I’m just sayin’
Don’t be surprised
when he leaves you
For the next girl to swipe right
I know exactly how that sounds coming from me
I ain’t exactly been stable since last week
(I’m disconnecting from reality)
And I’m just tryna save you time
You won’t be getting any more of mine
(Just tryna tell you that I've seen the signs)
It’s impossible to say it
Without sounding like I'm desperate
But I just thought you should know
I’m just sayin’
Don’t be surprised
When he leaves you
For the next girl that I like
I’m just sayin’
Don’t be surprised
when he leaves you
For the next girl to swipe right
Sorry for the outburst
I just wanna crowdsurf
Off the edge of the world
Even if they say no
I am gonna let go
Drop the act I rehearsed so carefully
Even if you hate my
Guts I’m gonna make time
Wonder what’s around the bend
Even as we place bets
Only thing I regret
Never learning how to be friends
How to be friends
It’s impossible to tell it
Without sounding like i’m jealous
But I won’t sleep if I don’t
I’m just sayin’
Don’t be surprised
When he leaves you
For the next girl that I like
I’m just sayin’
Don’t be surprised
when he leaves you
For the next girl to swipe right
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11. |
To Put It Nicely
03:13
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To put it nicely
somebody screwed up
You wouldn’t like me
If I told you who it was
You say unlikely
But you don't know what I've done
To hide the truth from view
From them, from you
And it was never my business
I probably should have just shut up
Somebody overheard somebody
Shouldn’t have asked what it was
Did you at least ask why?
Or even if she said what you thought you heard
Suspending all extended invites
Like you’re the only one who lives here
And it was never my business
I probably should have just shut up
Somebody overheard somebody
Shouldn’t have asked what it was
I would appreciate it if you wouldn't try to
sabotage my friendships
I would appreciate it if you wouldn't try to
sabotage my friendships
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12. |
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You’re so easy to talk to it’s scary
And everyone in this van’s asleep and I
Don’t know what time it is or where we are
To tell the truth I haven’t cared all week
I've got a problem, you've got a solution
we'll watch the sunrise from the California shore
I can only draw one conclusion
You’re pretty cool and we should hang out more
(YEAH)
we've been talking for hours
Here comes the sun
Is it morning already?
We had just begun
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13. |
Interlude
03:53
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I’ve been feeling just like this
For a decade
Telling myself not now
Maybe someday
I’ll work up the nerve
To tell anybody
But It’ll be another before I’m ready
And besides
I’m just so used to
Never getting what I want
I’ll be fine
It’s no use wondering
If we all got it wrong
Is it worth wanting something
Just to know I’ll never get it
(Or would it be better
To not know, not ever)
Be cursed with never knowing
Why I feel so isolated
(Ignorance appealing
Preferable to feeling)
This way, can’t stay
Moving on
Increasingly uncomfortable
Better than feeling
nothing at all
Nothing will be the same again
Is it worth wanting something
Just to know I’ll never get it
(Or would it be better
To not know, not ever)
Be cursed with never knowing
Why I feel so isolated
(Ignorance appealing
Preferable to feeling)
Cody Blackwood:
Is it worth it?
Am I just biding my time?
or am I just stuck finding the line?
Is it worth it?
Should I just take it back?
I know it'll never happen
Bridge:
She’s been waiting a long long time
For you to ask the question
(for you to ask the question)
No longer a matter of if
Just how long til I get desperate
(til you get desperate)
til you get desperate
Is it worth wanting something
Just to know I’ll never get it
(Or would it be better
To not know, not ever)
Be cursed with never knowing
Why I feel so isolated
(Ignorance appealing
Preferable to feeling)
Outro Right:
I wish she hadn’t caught my eye
Hadn’t seen what she was wearing
I go red with embarrassment
And also green with envy
And it’s not the first time by a long shot
But I’ll bury every instance in my subconscious thought
Outro left:
I check to see if I am still alive
she's looking through me
I check to see if I am still alive
she's looking through me
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15. |
Wednesday
03:00
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Is it Wendesday?
Did you wake up on time?
Is it friendly?
Or just all in my mind?
Is it ending?
Is this your fault or mine?
If it’s ending
Is this just how it’s designed?
Take a little bit of yourself
And give it to someone else
Watch them turn around and give it back
Make a little time for yourself
And try to put it back
But no matter how hard you try it wont attach
Is it 2020?
Or 2010?
It’s been a decade
And I’m so glad we’re still friends
Helped me learn how
to just be myself
If I can have that
I don’t need anything else
:
Take a little bit of yourself
And give it to someone else
Watch them hold it close, keep it intact
Take a little time for yourself
To try and work this out
But you still don’t really know how to react
Verse 3:
Are you happy?
Do you think you will be?
Does it matter?
Is this all that you need?
Cause you’re allowed to want
And you’re allowed to change
And you’re allowed to just express
The way you’ve always been
Take a little bit of yourself
And give it to someone else
Watch them turn around and give it back
Make a little time for yourself
And try to put it back
But no matter how hard you try it wont attach
Take a little bit of yourself
And give it to someone else
Watch them hold it close, keep it intact
Take a little time for yourself
To try and work this out
But you still don’t really know how to react
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