1. |
intro
01:54
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2. |
faster
03:36
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And every time I see you look at me it’s like the world collapses
And don’t you dare to smile or who knows just what would happen
you walk into the room and I immediately panic
you look at me, I melt, I die, is this our new dynamic?
They've got me covered in electrodes and wires
does the EEG betray my desires?
Does the oximeter register the change
when you message me, and my breath wanders away?
won't you stick around?
you sing along as my heart beats faster now
y'know for friends we tend to text each other goodnight quite a bit and
if I didn't know better I might say somebody is smitten
I hear the subject matter of their songs begin to shift and
I'm only gonna give them like one or ten more listens
right now I'm telling you this time I swear I'm really gonna do it
it's been a couple weeks and I have run out of excuses
spent the whole day just working up the courage
but I've got the strongest feeling it might actually be worth it
won't you stick around?
you sing along as my heart beats faster now
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3. |
entangled
03:26
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If you gave me the option I'd stare into your eyes
for multiple lifetimes, never say goodbye
in these moments, entangled and close it's
all I can do not to burst from the inside
I still can't believe it, that It's not not a dream
you tell me how nice it is to feel seen.
I couldn't agree more, the doubts that I had before
have melted away, puddles on the floor starting to evaporate
learning how to see myself the way that you see me
learning how to show myself the love that you've shown me
you're everything I ever wanted
and a lot of things I didn't know I needed
I hope you know when I say I love you I mean it
you're so much more than I could ask for
spend my days searching for ways to make you believe it
I hope you know when I say you're the one I mean it
I hope you know when I say I love you I mean it
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4. |
half answer
02:46
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Take your time
I'll be here
feeling "fine"
(in quotation marks)
Ill defined
let me know
Draw the line
that's what keeps me up
it's only half an answer
neither seem to know
what's going wrong
Could I buy some time
if I just hold your hand or
have I already held on too long?
that's what keeps me up
it's only half an answer
neither seem to know
just what went wrong
sifting through the pieces
of a small disaster
will we be ok
please don't be gone long
write it down
think a bit
scratch it out
think about
say hello
am I allowed?
you say you need more space
well honey you can get it
but this will be the last time
I don't have much more to go
before I'm falling off the planet
every time you leave me reeling
and if this is the last time then can I have just
a sec to tell you how I'm feeling?
that's what keeps me up
it's only half an answer
neither seem to know
what's going wrong
Could I buy some time
if I just hold your hand or
have I already held on too long
that's what keeps me up
it's only half an answer
neither seem to know
just what went wrong
sifting through the pieces
of a small disaster
will we be ok
please don't be gone long
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5. |
separate
00:55
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6. |
trauma response
02:20
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sorry I keep flinching
but I'm really not used to this
it's all new and
old habits die hard I guess
this is usually the part where
someone tells me
they don't want me around
leave it to you to break the pattern
make me feel like my feelings matter
it's gonna hurt but not as much as the feeling that
time is running out
wake another day and put the past behind you
tell me to forget it but I'm not inclined to
pray nobody ever has to feel like I do
but at least we didn't ever leave the truth unspoken
petty consolation, leave the future open
what's it gonna take for me to not be broken
sorry that I'm like this
I'm just waiting for the trauma response to hit
didn't mean to make this your problem
you didn't sign up for the things it comes with
Sorry that I'm like this
the least I can do is stay silent
fade into the background
'til you decide if you want me around
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7. |
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it's far too late
to tell me that now
I wont debate
just wondering how
we'd be if I could learn to let this go
take it slow
Experience taught me the best thing to say
Is nothing (i just need to be noticed)
I can’t shake the thought, if you knew how I felt
If I let you in it would just push you further away
cross my mind, all the time
when my thoughts begin to stray
a reminder of why
I would give it all away
every piece, just to be
sure that you were doing well
though I'd do it again
should have kept a little for myself
and maybe someone else
No one ever feels the same
when there's no one to blame
when it's me that chose the pain
when I choose to believe
someone else could feel the same
what a fool I can be
when I hear you say my name
but don't you ever forget it
as I lay in their arms
and the sky is getting dark
put my ear to the chest
hear the beating of the hearts
and I look in their eyes
but I don't know what to say
because all I can think
is how bad it's gonna hurt one day
when this goes away
"you're the best thing that has ever happened to me"
"I feel so much affection for you"
"I'm so happy I found you"
"you don't have to bury your feelings with me"
"I'll try my best to take away your pain my love"
"I'll be strong enough for the both of us, just let me take care of you"
"you've stolen my heart, my love"
cross my mind, all the time
when my thoughts begin to stray
a reminder of why
I would give it all away
every piece, just to be
sure that you were doing well
though I'd do it again
should have kept a little for myself
and maybe someone else
"remember that you are not alone"
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8. |
so involved
00:34
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9. |
silence
02:52
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will you keep a little piece
somewhere you can see?
reminder of what existed
you said you'd proudly display it
that's really all I needed
but as I'm blocked and deleted
it's getting hard to believe it
I know you need a space
where you don't worry what I may see
still feels like you're trying to erase me
someone's insecurities
about you and me.
what makes it so complicated?
say you can't describe it
let me simplify it
i just don't like spending all my time
In the quiet
you don't want to try it
so we compromise
it's simple, you get everything you want
and I get silence
go on keep pretending that you don't know me
but I bet you'll see me scrolling on your FYP
if you don't ever want to hear a thing about me
don't check the charts
keep that block button handy
you said you'd proudly display it
that's really all I needed
but as I'm blocked and deleted
it's getting hard to believe it
if I can make a career
out of a bad situation
then I've got you to thank
for the motivation
I'd always dreamed that I'd be taking you with me
and if we were talking like I'd hoped that we'd still be
that's one thing. I will be determined to fill these
empty spaces with something that's real if it kills me
go on keep pretending that you don't know me
but I bet you'll see me scrolling on your FYP
if you don't ever want to hear a thing about me
don't check the charts
keep that block button handy
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10. |
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I don’t
want to
feel this
way anymore
what do I gotta do
what's it gonna take
I see where you're coming from
I'm just in the way
tell me what to do
what's it gonna take
what do I have to become
so the next one stays?
if anybody'd be so lucky to have me, then have me
I just want to be yours so badly
I just wanna determine exactly
why not
HEY
WHAT IS THERE LEFT FOR ME TO SAY?
WORDS HAVE NEVER BEEN ENOUGH FOR THEM TO STAY
I'LL JUST KEEP LYING THROUGH MY TEETH THAT I'M OK
UNTIL THEN
UNTIL THE MOMENT I"M NO LONGER ASKING WHEN
YOU CAN FIND ME ENDLESSLY TRYING AGAIN
AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN
if anybody'd be so lucky to have me then have me
I just want to be happy
I just wanted to be happy
watching everything just working out for everybody
and since you've rid yourself of me now you can join the party
and if you're worried, you can stop, no need to think of me
I've got this empty space to keep me company
the empty bed and empty hand, the aching head and broken heart
the massive distance between where we used to stand and where you are
if you're worried, you can stop, no need to think of me
I'VE GOT THIS FUCKING EMPTY SPACE TO KEEP ME COMPANY
I just want to feel the pressure
of someone next to me forever
are things ever getting better
I just want to be together
WITH ANYONE
ANYONE WHO WILL HAVE ME SO BADLY
I JUST WANTED TO BE HAPPY
AT LEAST ONE OF US IS HAPPY
it's the ache I can not get used to
teach me how to move on like you do
and if we haven't gone too far
teach me how to be beautiful like you are
HEY
WHAT IS THERE LEFT FOR ME TO SAY?
WORDS HAVE NEVER BEEN ENOUGH FOR THEM TO STAY
I'LL JUST KEEP LYING THROUGH MY TEETH THAT I'M OK
UNTIL THEN
UNTIL THE MOMENT I"M NO LONGER ASKING WHEN
YOU CAN FIND ME ENDLESSLY TRYING AGAIN
AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN
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11. |
bored
02:29
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It's been a few weeks
And honestly it's been much better that I thought it would be
Seems like you're feeling it too
And let me tell you it's so nice to talk to somebody new
I'm out of practice with the flirting
but I'm always up for learning
and it seems like the direct
communication is working
but there's one thing you need to know
that no matter where this goes
If its short or if it lasts
there's just one thing that I ask
when you get bored of me
give me a heads up
that you want to go
cause I won't know
until you're gone
when you get bored of me, tell me
it always ends up the same
don't say you won't
just let me know when your feelings change
do me the courtesy, won't you?
give me an evening to grieve
just hold me tight, for one more night
before you leave
cause if you tell me that you'll be around and want me in your life
and tell me I'm important but can't manage to reply
then drop right off the planet without even a goodbye and
tell me I won't lose a friend but let somebody somebody else decide
you'll leave me waking every day just marinating in the thought
aching for the final parting kiss I never got
I swear i'll give you anything, yeah everything you want
just let me have a couple final moments in your arms
JUST LET ME HAVE A COUPLE FINAL MOMENTS IN YOUR ARMS
CAUSE IF YOU TELL ME THAT YOU'LL BE AROUND AND WANT ME IN YOUR LIFE
AND TELL ME I'M IMPORTANT BUT CAN'T MANAGE TO REPLY
THEN DROP RIGHT OFF THE PLANET WITHOUT EVEN A GOODBYE AND
TELL ME I WON'T LOSE A FRIEND BUT LET SOMEBODY SOMEBODY ELSE DECIDE
YOU'LL LEAVE ME WAKING EVERY DAY JUST MARINATING IN THE THOUGHT
ACHING FOR THE FINAL PARTING KISS I NEVER GOT
I SWEAR I'LL GIVE YOU ANYTHING, YEAH 𝓔𝓥𝓔𝓡𝓨𝓣𝓗𝓘𝓝𝓖 𝓨𝓞𝓤 𝓦𝓐𝓝𝓣
JUST LET ME HAVE A COUPLE FINAL MOMENTS IN YOUR ARMS
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12. |
aligned
04:15
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there was a night
(a s-s-summer night)
where the stars and planets all aligned
you had me completely enraptured
well done, heart captured
a climax to all of the glimpses and glances
looking your way, being caught in your gaze
no more lying awake thinking what are the chances
of all the unlikely circumstances
two objects hurling through the cosmos
slowly converging passing so close
nearly parallel (n-n-nearly parallel)
not enough time to brace for the farewell
but for a moment, caught in the orbit
side by side, it's gonna happen or it's not
nearly parallel (n-n-nearly parallel)
not enough time to brace for the farewell
sorry if I sound like I'm still yearning
i'm just glad we chose to take the journey
you know my opinion on fate
i guess we didn't have it in us to make a change
didn't quite land where we aimed
but it's always gonna kill me how close we came
never seen a light like yours before
never enough, I'll always want more
passing, swirling, phasing through each other
in the brief moments we mixed, we made a beautiful color
such a striking chord,
overtones never heard before
might never be heard again
but I'll always remember when
all the stars and planets conspired
to bring us together and set us on fire
shining,blazing, soaring through the clouds
til all the oxygen ran out
Til a fall took place
I'll admit we got a little too close to space
But while we were flying high
It always felt like
(It always felt like)
sorry if I sound like I'm still pining
(we both know that)
no amount of time would satisfy me
You know my opinion on fate
I guess we didn't have it in us to make a change
didn't quite land where we aimed
But it's always gonna kill me how close we came
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13. |
one last time
00:33
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I just thought, I've been wrong so many times. I was wrong when I thought your "maybe later" was a nice way of saying no. I was wrong when I thought there's no way you could feel the same way about me. When I w as convinced you wouldn't wait for me... I guess I was just really hoping I could be wrong one last time.
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14. |
reprise
03:58
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